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Saturday, July 01, 2006

it has been a long time since i last blogged. its pure laziness. nothing much to talk about thou. its just my simple life. and i love it:) i wish things never change. im will give my all to not let myself change anithing. people time it on time, but i guess, after all that i had went thru, i take the blame on myself. its the people who change things. not time. time changes circumstances, but people change relationships.
i spent the pass few days thinking about the person and things i wanted to think least about. the person whom had caused many unhappiness in my life for the past few months. i want badly to forget how bad it hurts, but yet, the more i want to let go, the more tightly i seem to be holdin on. to those scary times when we fought, when i cried, when i feel as if my world is breaking apart. its scary to have all the negative thoughts flooding your mind. especially when u are trying to stay focus while u do ur papers, and when the first thing you think wabout when u first wake up. haha. its horrendous. :
i think its stress. that is the culprit of all these emotions. im so glad that mid years are over. and im indulging myself in excessive gambling. in mahjiong and soccer betting. i won my first soccer bet ydae. draw for the germany and argentina match. haha. the penalty kick was exciting. germany goalkeeper was good:) and i saw ballack. he is so sauvel. <3 oh well, i hope portugal win and send beckham back to england. and i hope france will win becos the odds are high. lala~ after all these nonsense, i will nid to go back to the life of a nerd. this is my therapy after being traumatized by the veejay mean pok teachers. haha. and im all prepared to go for four remedials, or maybe five. which includes gp. btw, im a four sub-ber. not three sub-ber. i think i have a stupid face. jaws drop when people know that i was from triple science. and im still holding onto four subs. wth. but nvm. those cedar times are times that im super duper proud of. :))
im so sleepy and dirty now. wanted to go swimming. but im just tooo lazy to get out of my house. besides, i will be dry swimming later:) gonna shower. and wait for my guest to come:)) okayy larhhs. goodbye. i hope i blog soon. blehh.

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